Things are not getting better for me. And I thought that this year is gonna be a good year. How foolish I am... My family just quarreled again. This time, pushing all the responsibility to me and my brother. My mum blamed everything to us like we did everything wrong. I can understand this because she is having a rough year too. She get into an accident last year while driving. Thankfully she is okay. However, she was sued for driving during a red light. And blah blah blah.. She couldn't feel any worse right now..

I faced a lot of problems too this year. Join a CCA and got a post in that CCA. Got so many things to rush but have no idea how to start. It is definitely not an easy job. Nobody wants to do it. I got a partner too. However he is now in China and hence I have to do all this shit by myself.. How crappy is that? Not only that, my friends was facing problems too. And was really sad because of it. So she decided to tell me her problems not knowing I have problems too. I am okay with her except that I couldn't feel any worse when I have to deal with her problems as well as my problems now..

Then earlier today, our family quarreled. But my mum was being unfair saying that we are to blame and all. Everyone has problems you know? She don't even know how much problems I have now and start blaming on us on nothing. Crap.. This world sucks. I have been praying to God these few days hopefully I can get over this crap. Life really sucks now..

Initially, I thought that things are going better for me. Apparenly I am wrong. I felt different that's for sure.. But in a bad way. I don't know what will I be doing with my life in the future.. Just hope for the best..