Things are not getting better for me. And I thought that this year is gonna be a good year. How foolish I am... My family just quarreled again. This time, pushing all the responsibility to me and my brother. My mum blamed everything to us like we did everything wrong. I can understand this because she is having a rough year too. She get into an accident last year while driving. Thankfully she is okay. However, she was sued for driving during a red light. And blah blah blah.. She couldn't feel any worse right now..

I faced a lot of problems too this year. Join a CCA and got a post in that CCA. Got so many things to rush but have no idea how to start. It is definitely not an easy job. Nobody wants to do it. I got a partner too. However he is now in China and hence I have to do all this shit by myself.. How crappy is that? Not only that, my friends was facing problems too. And was really sad because of it. So she decided to tell me her problems not knowing I have problems too. I am okay with her except that I couldn't feel any worse when I have to deal with her problems as well as my problems now..

Then earlier today, our family quarreled. But my mum was being unfair saying that we are to blame and all. Everyone has problems you know? She don't even know how much problems I have now and start blaming on us on nothing. Crap.. This world sucks. I have been praying to God these few days hopefully I can get over this crap. Life really sucks now..

Initially, I thought that things are going better for me. Apparenly I am wrong. I felt different that's for sure.. But in a bad way. I don't know what will I be doing with my life in the future.. Just hope for the best..

I can't believe it. Why are you so desperate?? Okay fine.. You like her, and she don't like you. But you don't have to feel sad about yourself and start telling everyone how much it hurts!! And your notes ah, stop tagging me inside! Its so embarassing to be part of it! You shouldn't have created that note for the first place! How could you just tell everyone about your love life?? (okay its not even love life since its one-sided).

Of course she will get angry!! And please! Read back your notes! You sound super desperate! You like her, she don't like you. FINE! Just move on!! Don't have to start whinning to the whole world and tell everyone that you are sad. Everyone has problems! You are not the only one hurt in this world!

Now I think more people hate you already. What are you thinking when you post all those things? And you tag her in that note too?! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING SERIOUSLY!! I still got a lot of things to rant about but I'll just keep it this way in case you read my blog.

If you are reading this, quit feeling so pathetic about yourself! Love does not come once in your life and you still have a long way to live! Quit being so desperate to get a girlfriend! You are not the only one single! I'm single too right?! And quit telling the whole world how sad you are! That can be really frustating sometimes! If you want to say it, say it in a private place please. No one likes a friend who is emo all the time!

I wish you the best in the future and get a girlfriend soon.. Also hope you won't find this offensive.. Just have to say it..

Fuck sia. I hate my life a lot. FUCK! _l_

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!

Shouldn't have feel bad for you
Shouldn't have feel scared because of you
Shouldn't have think about you
Shouldn't have feel sad for you
Shouldn't have cry because of you
I hate you I hate you I hate you! Why did you do that to me?? Why are you so stupid?? Why are you so ignorant? So inconsiderate?

wait. I don't even know what am I doing anymore. Fuck my life.